Posts

Disenchanted

I am so disenchanted with our US healthcare system. I had to switch insurance back in January and I’ve been paying $480 a month for a health insurance plan that I haven’t been able to use it all, because I haven’t been able to get in with a primary care doctor to talk about my concerns, and none of them are so urgent that I feel like I need to go to an urgent care or emergency room over. So I have just been left to my own devices, to do my own research and try to figure out things on my own. I am thankful that my plan is a high deductible plan that qualifies for a health savings account so I was able to put $4150 (pre-tax) into my health savings account at the beginning of the year when I started the plan, and I’ve been able to use that money on things like a gym membership, vitamins, and supplements, and even some tech related items like a heart rate monitor and smart scale. The reason I qualified to make those purchases with my health savings account is because I’m obese, according t...
Post a Comment
Read more

Healing the Future

I know there’s a lot of heavy stuff going on in our world right now. Our country is divided, and even though I support our president and believe that he will do good in our country, there are also lots of things happening that I don’t agree with, and I sometimes struggle to feel “proud to be an American” .  I know there are people who dedicate their lives to justice and pointing out the things that are wrong in our country and in our world. I am not one of those people, to be honest, and throughout the course of my 46 years I have learned that for my own mental health and sanity, I need to focus on the good. It doesn’t mean I turn a blind eye or pretend there aren’t bad things happening, it just means that I choose to find the good that’s out there, and put my focus and energy into that as much as possible. Today I want to share how excited I am to see a generation of people dedicated to healing their trauma and creating a better future for the generations that come after us. I’ve ...
Post a Comment
Read more

A tale of two sisters (and now two cabins)

My sister and I have never been close. I think she would agree. As kids, I wasn’t very nice to her and I’m still to this day not sure why. I mean, there’s normal sibling rivalry, I get that. I have two teenage girls of my own. But growing up, I almost felt like my parents pitted us against each other on purpose, and I definitely felt like the “bad kid” while my little sister could do no wrong, so I think that just created a lot of bitterness towards her from the start. As my parents relationship deteriorated, so did my behavior and I remember doing really mean things to my sister. She remembers me dipping her toothbrush in the toilet, and not telling her until after she had used it, and I remember holding her down and dripping lugies towards her face, sometimes dropping them (accidentally of course). I’m embarrassed to admit it but that’s the type of sister that I was. I have apologized over the years and she has forgiven me, but I still think it has affected our ability to be friends....
Post a Comment
Read more

Single life

Am I destined to be single for the rest of my days? Finding someone at my age seems impossible, especially in the age of online dating. I’m kind of over the apps at this point. They feel like such a waste of time, and you have to weed through so many unavailable, unresponsive, or just plain rude and vulgar men to even get to a good conversation or a meet up in person with a real dude. From there, I seem to somehow end up with felons or people who have been in jail, at least that seems to be my pattern recently. Lol. It’s made for some funny stories, but also kind of depressing. I will admit, I’m picky. I’m content being single, I’m financially stable, I can take care of myself, and right now my kids come first. But I have to believe that there is somebody out there that would appreciate what I’m looking for in a relationship and be a good fit. Part of me loves being single, I sleep so good at night in my giant bed with no one snoring next to me, but I miss companionship, and I wish I h...
1 comment
Read more

A strange and sad coincidence

Two years ago, on Memorial Day weekend I found out my dad had cancer. Three weeks and a day later, he was gone. Yesterday, his long time caretaker on the property (who had left briefly right before my dad got sick, but came back after he passed and has been taking care of the property for the last two years in his absence), passed away, three weeks and a couple days after being diagnosed with liver cancer. He was only 62. The timing and similarities have brought back waves of emotion from my dad passing, as well as sadness that this man had no family or friends other than my dad and the people he met through him over the years. Two of those people stepped in and helped care for him, and sit with him during his final days, and for that we are so thankful. I am also thankful that hospice was able to get involved quickly, and the process to get him on Medicaid went much smoother than anticipated. The state should pay for most of his medical bills and funeral home expenses. However, this l...
Post a Comment
Read more

National Park Road Trip - Final Day

Image
It’s our last morning waking up on the road together. Kenton and I have had so much fun. Last night he said he didn’t want the trip to end. To be honest, I don’t either, but I do miss the girls and am excited to see them tonight. For the time being though, we are going to enjoy one more day of vacation. We made it to Prineville last night, after a grand total of 11 hours and 40 minutes of driving yesterday.  We left the Bonneville Salt Flats in Wendover, Utah after sunrise and drove to a cool public sunstone collection area in remote southern Oregon, a beautiful part of the state that I haven’t experienced in my 20+ years living here. It was the first time on this trip that we truly lost cell phone reception for a long period of time and had to navigate with a paper map picked up at a gas station.  Remember the days of the big road atlas and AAA printed trip guides? It probably wouldn’t be a bad idea to carry an actual map with me on trips like this, but Google maps and GPS su...
Post a Comment
Read more

Excitement and Anticipation

Image
Sometimes for me, looking forward to things can be almost as fun as the actual experience itself. Kenton and I are heading out next week for a fun summer road trip. We’re driving from Oregon to Durango, Colorado to visit my aunt and uncle, stopping in Boise along the way to visit another friend of the family. Kenton has his free National Park pass for just finishing fourth grade, so we’re planning to hit up as many national parks and monuments as we can during our time on the road.  We are definitely stopping in Arches and we’ll do Mesa Verde since it’s only about 45 minutes from my Aunt and Uncle‘s house, but the rest is up in the air, and I kind of like it that way. It’s a little overwhelming for me to plan out a trip on a day by day or hour by our basis. I like to plan a general route and have a few things in mind, but one of my favorite things to do when out exploring on the road is just to wake up in the morning and use Google maps to search for interesting things nearby. So i...
Post a Comment
Read more